As I sit here in bed, alone, on a Friday night, listening to the rats in the ceiling, the crickets, and the occassional dog bark....I can't help but focus my attention heavenward. Occassinoally I drift into self-centered moods where all I think about is how left out I feel or maybe I really do do too much or am I really that stressed? or are people seeing my love for God at all? I don't like these kind of moods because they tend to make me quiet and sulky. In stead of focusing on the positive, "let's improve things" I usually dwell on the "pity me." Which is a shame, because I am not a quiet or sulky kind of person! However, I do tend to wear my heart on my sleeve; I just hate it when the shirt turns cold and grey. I prefer bright colors and at least warm temperatures. So, what is one to do when life momentarily looks bleak? Focus heavenward. Which brings me back to where I started. God. If only I could keep my focus there, where it should be. Life wouldn't ever look too bleak, since I would view it through God's grace! But....these rats are just so distracting. It's like spiritual ADD. Or maybe ADHD? Whatever, it leaves me feeling like Paul in Romans 7:15-24. But at least that is an encouraging thought.... I'm not alone!
are they playing football up there?!
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